I didn't really expect things to be easy.

[ Yes, there's a big difference between easy and very difficult, she knew that. ]

Very difficult isn't impossible. It seems more important get a good look of all aspects of this world. I'm not afraid of the darker aspects of it, and I'm not afraid of them making things that hard to get through. As long as I can't be stopped from trying, there's a chance to succeed.

[ They're probably right that she doesn't suit the court, but there could still be things she excelled at in their courses. ]