[That's how it's always been, though, ever since she's been able to be weaned from her mother. Go out, get money or food or whatever is needed, and bring it back. It got even worse when her brother came around, but that's not something she dwelled on for too long.]

They didn't know what it was, it was inevitable. Just... shouldn't have been that inevitable. [If he had been properly taken care of, is what she's really saying, but that should probably be obvious enough with how she acted back there.

She pulls the shawl a little tighter around her, deep breaths, keep calm. It's fine despite the realization of what she's just done is sinking in.] That's... that's just how it is. But I don't have to deal with that now, I can do just fine on my own. [And in reality, she really did, but not after some more suffering to get to that path.]