I know, that's why even knowing that you want me to stay, experienced how badly you do, I cant. I'm not gonna let that stop me.

[The decision was already made, they both know that. They were just both putting it off by pretending to be ignorant of that fact, but it was already a forgone conclusion.

Kirk was going to Gold.

He doesn't say sorry because it feels hollow.]

But I meant it. I'll help you.