[ After a day of nightmares, Edgin is exhausted. He's trying to be a good person and a good mentor but it's difficult. He did mean what he said, but not in the way he'd acted on it in the nightmare. But he did care about Kirk.
He did love Kirk.
But he doesn't have a right to be selfish about this. And yet there's Kirk standing right there telling him no one has ever wanted him to stay and it breaks his heart into a million pieces and he doesn't know what to do because telling him to stay is unfair but letting him believe no one wants him isn't right either.
They've fought about this before though. It's like grasping for straws to try and remember what he had said about, then. Mostly, tired like this, he just remembers fighting and then sex. Which is not helping. ]
I'm trying to support you. I really am. But I'm [ he realizes he's about to say "only human" except that isn't true at all at he laughs a little hollowly ] still just some guy at the end of the day. Someone who, like most people who meet you, fell into your orbit and can't imagine falling out of it.
[ someone who is hopelessly in love with him. ]
We both know you're going to Gold Court no matter what I say, though. So why make this harder on us?
[ he hasn't forgotten the offer about Kira, but they need to get through this part first. ]
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[ After a day of nightmares, Edgin is exhausted. He's trying to be a good person and a good mentor but it's difficult. He did mean what he said, but not in the way he'd acted on it in the nightmare. But he did care about Kirk.
He did love Kirk.
But he doesn't have a right to be selfish about this. And yet there's Kirk standing right there telling him no one has ever wanted him to stay and it breaks his heart into a million pieces and he doesn't know what to do because telling him to stay is unfair but letting him believe no one wants him isn't right either.
They've fought about this before though. It's like grasping for straws to try and remember what he had said about, then. Mostly, tired like this, he just remembers fighting and then sex. Which is not helping. ]
I'm trying to support you. I really am. But I'm [ he realizes he's about to say "only human" except that isn't true at all at he laughs a little hollowly ] still just some guy at the end of the day. Someone who, like most people who meet you, fell into your orbit and can't imagine falling out of it.
[ someone who is hopelessly in love with him. ]
We both know you're going to Gold Court no matter what I say, though. So why make this harder on us?
[ he hasn't forgotten the offer about Kira, but they need to get through this part first. ]