[He grimaces a little at the words, but they are true, they are honest. He was making this harder when he doesn't mean to. That's not his intention at all, yet he.. Yet, he said what he said and that's on him. Edgin was trying to hard for him, he can see that. Pushing his emotions aside for him.
What does he want? For Edgin to hold on to him with his claws and make the dream a reality? No. That wasn't good for either of them.]
Ah, fuck, no you're right I--
[He takes a deep breath and nods. It was his turn to shelve his emotions. His turn to swallow the cloying feelings that were mucked up in his own abandonment issues and trauma. Those weren't Edgin's fault, so why should he make the vampire responsible for it.]
You're right. That wasn't fair of me, to either of us. I didn't think before I said it. [He sighs, giving him a smile now. A little forced but still real.]
But.. I don't think you realize the orbit you have me caught up in either. I think we're both scared that without this claim to tether us, we'll float away, but you had me from the first time I saw you play the lute at that bar.
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What does he want? For Edgin to hold on to him with his claws and make the dream a reality? No. That wasn't good for either of them.]
Ah, fuck, no you're right I--
[He takes a deep breath and nods. It was his turn to shelve his emotions. His turn to swallow the cloying feelings that were mucked up in his own abandonment issues and trauma. Those weren't Edgin's fault, so why should he make the vampire responsible for it.]
You're right. That wasn't fair of me, to either of us. I didn't think before I said it. [He sighs, giving him a smile now. A little forced but still real.]
But.. I don't think you realize the orbit you have me caught up in either. I think we're both scared that without this claim to tether us, we'll float away, but you had me from the first time I saw you play the lute at that bar.